::: Hands 2 Heaven :::

As I watch you move, across the moonlit room
There's so much tenderness in your loving
Tomorrow I must leave, the dawn knows no reprieve
God give me strength when I am leaving...

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday

Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

As we move to embrace, tears run down your face
I whisper words of love, so softly
I can't believe this pain, it's driving me insane
Without your touch, life will be lonely

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday

Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

Morning has come, another day
I must pack my bags and say goodbye...
Goodbye...

ma bro's wedding

22 January 2005, ini hari bahagia kk ku, di hari ini dia mengakhiri masa lajangnya dengan meminang gadis yang cukup lama menjalin hubungan dengannya..happy wedding bro, doaku mengiringi pernikahan mu yang suci ini..semoga menjadi keluarga sakinah mawa'dah dan warohmah...amien.."gue kapan nyusul yahh???hahaha"

::: damn :::

Damn...lagu itu dah nyentuh hati gue, nyentuh kenangan gue yang dah terkubur di jurang kehampaan, salah gue sendiri kenapa bisa setel lagu itu di komputer..hhmm...aransemen dan liriknya yang sangat ampuh buat mainin hati seseorang yang sedang sendiri..oouuggghhhhh, my GOD..jadi inget masa lalu lagi..sebagian lirik dari 3 lagu yang dah bunuh gue dari keangkuhan hati gue...
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You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say, but goodbye.................................
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I can't live if living is without you
I can't give, I can't give anymore
Can't live if living is without you
Can't give, I can't give anymore ..............................................
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When you say, I miss the things you do,
I just wanna get back close again to you.
But for now, your voice is near enough,
How I miss you, when I miss you, love.
And though,All the days that pass me by so slow
All the emptiness inside me flows, all around,
And there's no way out
I'm just thinkin' so much of you,
There was never any doubt...............................................

::: thats what friends are for :::

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the change to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today and
then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
A so by the way I thank you
And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

:: Jazzitude ::

"I'll play it and tell you what it is later"
--Miles Davis--

Sebuah ungkapan dari seorang jazzy mengenai musik yang digemarinya...what's up miles?
Gue sendiri ga ngerti, kenapa yah gue jadi suka ama musik jazz? awalnya sendiri gue ga tau kapan tiba-tiba jadi suka musik jazz..hmmm ntar dulu ntar dulu...kapan yah?ohh iya iya, kayanya pas mulai suka jazz itu semenjak dengerin lagunya incognito-still a friend of mine sama norah jones..duhh itu kan dah lama banget, trus sempet males dengerin lagu jazz soalnya kesan old banget kalo dengerin musik aliran jazz..ohh iya mungkin karena musik jazz yang di kemas jadi aliran groove yang bikin gue ngebet banget. gue inget sekarang, musik yang sering gue dengerin kan lagunya maliq n d'essestial, bali lounge, tompi, The Rippingtons, peppi kamadhatu itu kan semua alirannya groove..hehe jadi dehh sekarang gue "jazzitude". setiap malem kalo mau tidur gue selalu nyalain komputer trus gue set di winamp semua lagu2 yang aliran musik jazz trus gue set status di yahoo messenger dengan "sleeping with rhythm of jazz" atau "sleeping under the sky with sounds of jazz " hihihi sok jazzy banget sihh!! Tapi jujur yahh, gue ga bisa tidur kalo belum dengerin jazz..soalnya nyaman aja kalo dah dengerin lagu2 macam gitu...

pilihan terbaik....

kita sama sama sekian lama
janji kan berdua tak berpisah
dan kini...
ku pergi tinggal kenangan kasihku
maafkan diriku ingkari janji
haruskah ku tinggalkan mu...?
dosakah ku menyakiti hatimu..?
mungkin ini pilihan yang terbaik
tiada pernah lagi menyakitimu...

tiada pernah bisa yang terucapkan
betapa sakitnya yang kau rasakan
senyum mu matamu..
selalu siksa bathin ku
maafkan diriku...

-= i'm not fuckin' kay =-

Well if you wanted honesty, That's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks,
For photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second story?

I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but still don't know what they mean
To be a joke and look
Another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time
Take a good hard look!

I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took?
You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed

I'm okay.
I'm okay!
I'm okay, yeah
(I'm okay, yeah)

wish you were really hear listening to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I realize I'm okay!
(Trust me.)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)

--==You made me feel like the one==--

Thinking about thinking of you
Summertime think it was June
Yeah think it was June
Laying back, head on the grass
Children grown having some laughs
Yeah having some laughs.

You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

Drinking back, drinking for two
Drinking with you
And drinking was new
Sleeping in the back of my car
We never went far
Needed to go far

You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

I don't know where we are going now
I don't know where we are going now

Wake up cold coffee and juice
Remembering you
What happened to you?
I wonder if we'll meet again
Talk about us instead
Talk about why did it end

You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one
You made me feel like the one
Made me feel like the one
The one

I don't know where we are going now
I don't know where we are going now

2006

waduhhh, dah masuk 2006 lagi nihh...hmmm, umur gue dah makin nambah satu, makin berkurang dong...yaa tapi itulah hidup yang harus gue hadapi, gue sedih karna sampe sekarang gue masih belum bisa jalanin hidup yang "bener"..but maybe tomorrow i'll find my way..amien